God is so wonderful. 
In a world of chaos and hurt caused by our own faults, there are always signs of His perfection and splendor in life. Love is a beautiful thing that mirrors His image, and it's such an inspiring moment to see two people completely in love with each other and with Him unite as one. Such selfless and undeserving love was afforded to us through Christ giving His life so that we could live. I think to have selfless love for others is something to be strived for. I goal to love my friends, my enemies, the 'unlovable' with my whole heart for no benefit of my own but to love for love's sake because God is love. I only hope to be so lucky as to find what my two friends have found with one another. But if no one can put up with me, I'll happily settle to simply witness just a few of these amazing moments in my life. 

Scrawling some lyrics

   Everything will lighten up if you're not frightened enough
   to step out into life, no matter if the world feels bright or endlessly rough.
   On clear days happiness inflates but all too soon drops to the floor
   Like a dose of drugs that only lasts enough to make me want more.
   A bad taste in the mouth when going to sleep with a sigh and a dissatisfied moan
   Because at the end of the day I'm still walking through life alone, 
   hated and despised, even when surrounded by others and "well grounded."
   I'm not sure about much
   But I do know that others can't be the ones who dictate our worth, our future our heart.
   'Cause looking in the mirror through perfection's eyes only causes self hate. 
   On the streets beauty is overrated and character underestimated,
   Cynical teenagers and arrogant hipsters over generated.
   But I can't fear them or me, I need to rearrange my thoughts: why?
   Well It aint about blending in or standing out, it's about cause and effect-
   I be the cause to project the change
   'Cause I found you and you give me reason.
   I know you love me for me with all my idiosyncracies,
   my super ordinary looks, lack of brains and distaste for reading books.
   You will never leave or forsake
   and I no longer fear when alone or when I look back on my relationship mistakes.
   I love you
   Because you loved me first
   So I dive into life headfirst, no longer alone.
   Fear cannot survive on my bones or my flesh that you call your own.

                                                                                                                                       

The glass really is half full

The only upside to university life is the time. Whoever called it 'full time study' must have been in a humorous mood? Four months of summer, although somewhat dimmed by my very smart banking with Banksia which lost me 40 per cent of my travel funds, has given me time to save the money all over again! Lucky me! Although, as my Dad is very good at pointing it out, there is always a positive side...like the fact that I will get 60 per cent back instead of the potential zero that was being offered at the beginning of the Banking shenanigans. Whilst true, a little hard to swallow at first. But I am also greatful to have the time and economical freedom to produce a travel fund for myself. Look at me, being all positive and stuffs!
My plan is to save my butt off and use that money to go as far as I can for as long as I can in summer '13. It's rather exciting. No longer having the job I've had for four years is irrelevant haha. Anyway, I've got an interview Tuesday. My life long desire to see Israel and Egypt is finally growing into a serious reality and my determination to no longer spend a cent will hopefully hop, skip and jump me over to parts of Europe also. NO MORE CLOTHES DEB. That sounded odd but was in reference to my possible addiction to buying clothes all.................the.................time.
I used to think that there was no way that I could travel alone and that I needed to wait for a friend to come along who had the means and the will to join me who wasn't a complete nut case (of which there are many I've met along the way). I came to the realisation that I should not fear being alone in an unfamiliar place and cannot be held back by such fears. Kind of liberating (hate to sound like a doofas: LIBERATINGGGG). I wouldn't win the award for the most independent spirit, that's for sure! But as if I'm going to look back on these years as a full time teacher (which, might I add, is a little more intense than people give it credit for), and wonder what I did with 16 months of summer over four years of non arduous study.
So don't be expecting anything good for your birthday :)