Fear is a funny thing. It's the universal brick wall that we put up in front of ourselves, whether warranted or not, and can stop us from experiencing life. Everyone has their fears, but the ones that matter are the ones we allow to take over to the point where it affects our decisions. I'd like to think I've overcome some fears of mine to be the more independent and self-achieving person that I am right now.
A funny little fear of mine lead me to put off getting my driver's license far longer than logic decrees I ever should have. I worried about being "bad" at driving just like one could be "bad" at Maths or playing golf, but the risks are so much higher. I put it off and I put it off and it just became easier to not do it. When I finally started learning to drive, I would go between feeling OK about it and doubting myself. It's taken me to the age of 21 to finally decide I have to get my license. I have to make those steps towards complete independence.
Today I had my first professional driving lesson in hopes to work towards finalizing my skills before going for my license. Today I also was in a car crash. No one was hurt, apart from a severe headache that came after impact. The other driver's car was a large four wheel drive with a bullbar, I correctly slowed down, stopped and indicated to turn. The driver wasn't paying attention behind me and hit the back of me with such force I've never felt before. The back of the car I was driving was smashed in like a piece of paper. I never realised the shock one could experience from that, I can't possibly imagine what people have gone through when they've experienced head-on collisions. I was emotional and had no idea what just happened, shaking and confused.
My very familiar fear says to use this as the perfect example to justify my reluctance for so many years. But I'm going to say no to that because being held back by irrational thoughts will only hinder me. Gotta get back in my car and keep driving.
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